~The Heart of A Man~

"Before his downfall a man's heart is proud,

but humility comes before honor."

Proverbs 18:12

Have you ever wondered why God intended for Jesus to be a male? I have a few interpretations of my own. I am not a feminist, nor do I hold a PhD in Women's Studies. More likely I could be described as a phenomenologist, for my intentions are to write about "lived experiences" as primordial forms of my complex consciousness. On the other hand, I am very emotional, and I have shed many tears throughout many years. Somehow we know that "boys don't cry", and if they do it's never a public matter. No man would like to be a weak link in the chain. But I am a girl and tears are my jewels. In accord with my feminine inclination I easily surrender humbly towards a higher power for protection, but what about man and his source of protection? One thing I've learned in the course of time: A gentleman does not work for baksheesh, but his wages are earned. He is the source of his own protection and his heart is of a lion. Like a lion he roars to make his way. He declares his possession of power and strength.

"The LORD is my strength and my song; 

he has become my salvation.

He is my God, and I will praise him, 

my father's God, and I will exalt him." Exodus 15:2

Sometimes I manifest traits of a tomboy, and the veil of stubbornness falls on me. As a consequence, my very soul is disconnected from His mercy. After veil of stubbornness, down falls anger on me. "I want to earn the grace of God on my terms," shouts the voice in me. The voice becomes louder and before you know it, I believe to have the power to change the world like a superman.

This is why I believe Jesus chose to be a male to carry out an example of true surrender to God.

To surrender my will to God is not an easy task, but if I don't then I'll become the prisoner of my daily wars.

So what is it going to be?

"Anyone who is among the living has hope —
even a live dog is better off than a dead lion!"
Ecclesiastes 9:4